Paranoia

What drives me is my everlasting paranoia,
Fears that are so tall they live in the sky a giant sequoia,
Im that girl that thinks worst case scenario every time,
Its the only thing stopping me from committing a crime,
Lets be honest my first instint is to think things through,
Yet I play a fearless bad girl, a tough cookie and thats not true,
Watching princess and the frog and seeing ray die,
And adam sandler in click at the end Goodness I cried,
Because a facade is what I must keep up to keep going,
How can I constantly worry without people knowing?,
But its simple life is a beauty pageant you smile and wave,
Look pretty, boobies perky, and try not to misbehave,
Cant be caught in a scandal because you'll lower your chances,
And now a dads you must be careful about certain advances,
Sorry but No sex, no drugs, no alcohol for me,
Not because its right but because I know how I can be,
Give me sex and honey I might not be able to stop,
Guaranteed 9 months later Ill be ready to pop,
Give me drugs and watch me kill who I was,
Become so demented that I steal from my family just because,
Let poison touch my lips and the truth will drip drip drip,
Every secret revealed after every sip sip sip,
Now that Im older I need to be in control of every situation,
Its the only way Ill ever start my restoration,
I cant be mad about my yesterday because i had no control,
I must build a better future thats always been the goal,
Not for me but for my brothers and sisters, they deserve better,
And the best memories I have is when were all together,
My goal is to achieve more than youd expect from me,
Im jist trying to be another female role model in history.