Lady in Red

These lips of mine are so poison its deadly,
It a beautiful siren pulling you in with an intoxicating medley,
As plump and juicy as a Georgia peach,
A drop of water in the desert just out of your reach,
I pity the guy who falls in love with them at first sight,
Because whats seen during the day always changes at night,
And this tongue cuts deeper than the sharpest of blades,
Yet you listen deeply as the water cascades,
Words flow from my mouth ready to sink in,
Blasphemous treacherous unrepentant sin,
And as he becomes infatuated by the idea of tragic bliss,
Just as juliet tried to end her life with poison from a kiss,
The same lips that kissed my grandmother goodbye,
Are the same ones I use so blatantly to lie,
The ones I used to get picked on for as if I should carry shame,
But now its the 1 thing guys remember before my name,
Its my right to carry a weapon yet its in plain sight,
The forbidden fruit that you eat although its not right.

 

Losing My Best friend

"He made me laugh, He looked up to me, He was my best friend",
Everyday I fear losing my brother like today will be the end,
I imagine standing in front of all these people and breaking down,
I imagine my heart breaking knowing hes no longer around,
I wonder If Id be able to go up to that pew and words come before I cried,
I wonder how long it would be til it hits me that he really died?,
As far as family goes hes my definition of what family is,
Loyal, caring, over protective,and loving since we were kids,
The only guy whose been consistent in my life from the beginning,
The only 1 with the attitude if Im winning u winning,
What would I say to his ride or die boys that attend?,
Id say this thug life is not something I recommend,
Id cry to them and ask them to give it up cuz this kind of wound doesnt heal,
The pain will be too much and numb will be all I feel,
Id tell em that its killing me to stand so close to a box that holds my heart,
That my baby brother has always been with me from the start,
And now everyday Ill call his phone and he wont be there to say hello,
Say "yes Im good, yes I ate, aite I love you mo",
Then Id be crying out of control as the memories hit me,
And I think of all the things my baby brother could be,
And correct myself because its could of been,
Man honestly I wouldn't even know where to begin,
  How about how he was the first person to try my food,
How he said "this the best schetti Karly" with the best attitude,
Most of it wasn't even edible and he still ate it,
And everyday with the hope things would change he still waited,
Id be an absolute mess and this time couldn't be strong,
Id pray God switches places from me and him even if its wrong,
Id start to sing something that reminds me of my brother,
And mid song Id be reminded Ill never have another,
Then the selfish thoughts would come whose gunna walk me down the aisle?,
Whose face will light up wen I tell him his name is the middle name of my 1st child?,
Whose gunna tell me "Karly we family u gotta learn to forgive"?,
What am I gunna do without your strength how can I live?
Its the worst nightmare and I live it everyday,
And sadly Im sitting here imagining his funeral and what I would say.

Paranoia

What drives me is my everlasting paranoia,
Fears that are so tall they live in the sky a giant sequoia,
Im that girl that thinks worst case scenario every time,
Its the only thing stopping me from committing a crime,
Lets be honest my first instint is to think things through,
Yet I play a fearless bad girl, a tough cookie and thats not true,
Watching princess and the frog and seeing ray die,
And adam sandler in click at the end Goodness I cried,
Because a facade is what I must keep up to keep going,
How can I constantly worry without people knowing?,
But its simple life is a beauty pageant you smile and wave,
Look pretty, boobies perky, and try not to misbehave,
Cant be caught in a scandal because you'll lower your chances,
And now a dads you must be careful about certain advances,
Sorry but No sex, no drugs, no alcohol for me,
Not because its right but because I know how I can be,
Give me sex and honey I might not be able to stop,
Guaranteed 9 months later Ill be ready to pop,
Give me drugs and watch me kill who I was,
Become so demented that I steal from my family just because,
Let poison touch my lips and the truth will drip drip drip,
Every secret revealed after every sip sip sip,
Now that Im older I need to be in control of every situation,
Its the only way Ill ever start my restoration,
I cant be mad about my yesterday because i had no control,
I must build a better future thats always been the goal,
Not for me but for my brothers and sisters, they deserve better,
And the best memories I have is when were all together,
My goal is to achieve more than youd expect from me,
Im jist trying to be another female role model in history.